In a big city where you know nobody, it is difficult to find a place of your own. A place which will be home away from home and will provide you the comfortable corner. Being in Kolkata for almost three years, I still felt like a stranger. Among all the acquaintances, the count of friends is always a small number. So the journey of survival is in most parts a lonely one.
During the time I studied in the university, I lived in a hostel just across the road which belonged to a government aided institution meant for poor children named after a prominent social worker. It had a school within its premises, a hostel for the students who studied there and a dormitory for few college students. The rent and the meal charges were modest and so was the living. The dormitory was shared by six girls along with the caretaker who was almost deaf so didn't occur as an obstacle in the path of parties, celebrations and events which entitled us to scream at the top of our voices. There was a huge study hall and a dining space, both in want of repairs and reconstruction. Though everything looked so dismal, there was a coziness about the environment which metropolitan cities can rarely offer. Just outside the hostel there was a tram line on which moved the trams in their unusually slow speed alongside a fast moving traffic. I used to sit on the stairs outside the hostel building and dream away while staring at the advertisements on the body of the tram cars.
The university campus was smaller than usually expected and had four to five buildings. In one such building at the rear end of the campus was my department. There were some classmates who became good friends of mine and could instil the illusion of belongingness in the unfamiliar circumstances. Most of the days, after the classes, we would go to a small canteen just beside our building and have hot tea and delicious samosa accompanied by long discussions, heated debates and lively chats on all possible topics under the sun.
Although there was a lot happening around, I felt a vacuum inside me which never seemed to diminish. Sometimes I used to take a stroll along the sidewalk of the university campus. There were vendors of street food, a cobbler and also a small stationery shop. The last one was almost a tin-wooden cabinet where the pen seller seemed to be permanently installed with no way to exit or enter the shop. Most of the days I used to stop by this shop and looked at and tested the various pens for hours together. The man although had a frightening look, huge built and red eyes, he never showed any irritation towards me. He kept taking out the pens from the behind the glass cases and sometimes also from his hidden stocks. After seeing and scribbling with almost all the pens I would only take a three or four rupees pen, which at that time were the only ones I could afford with my meagre pocket money. I sometimes felt a little afraid that he would shout at me for wasting so much of his time. But throughout the 2 years I stayed there, he never ever spoke a cross word to me.
One day, it was raining heavily and I didn’t have an umbrella. I had just got down from a bus and had to walk a short distance back to my hostel. I started walking in that direction, when I heard somebody shouting, “sister”, “sister”. I looked back and saw the stationery shopkeeper. I went to him and asked what was the matter. He said that since it was pouring heavily, I could sit in his shop, check-out the new stock of pens and go back to hostel when the rain stops. For a moment I hesitated, but the prospect of getting to have a look at the pens made me respond in the affirmative. To my surprise, I found out that the shop was larger than I thought and had a small lobby behind. He offered me a chair and took out the pens for me. Once while I was scribbling with one of them, I took a quick glance at the man and found him smiling at me. I quickly kept the pen aside and put up a poised look on my face. But then he suddenly left and I was sitting all alone with my eyes wandering here and there when I caught sight of a parker pen. After a little while he came back with a steaming cup of tea and offered it to me with such a gracious gesture, that I couldn't deny, although I felt odd. I asked him to show me the parker pen. It looked so elegant and wrote so smoothly that I wanted to buy it with all my heart, but as expected it was very expensive. I think I was holding on to the price tag for more than a minute when the shopkeeper said, I can give you the pen for rupees ninety five instead of hundred. I looked up and thanked him for the offer, but declined as it was still quite costly for me. By that time, the rain had stopped, and after appreciating his kindness, I briskly walked back to my hostel.
After that day, the shop had become my favourite place to hang-out. He used to sell me the pens always at a discounted price and very often also offered me tea. He had a lot of information about the various types of pens and other writing instruments. Although both of us knew nothing about each other, we had a deep friendship based on a common liking towards pens.
At the end of two years, I went home for preparing for my final examinations. Immediately after my exams got over, I went to the shop, only to find it shut and locked. I looked about but couldn't find anybody around. Suddenly the cobbler sitting on the footpath called out to me and said that the pen seller had sold his shop and went back to his village. When I asked him what happened, he couldn't give me any exact information but said that there was some kind of an accident and a death in the family. I felt very sorry for the man and went back feeling sad. I had to leave for my home next day, so I started packing my things. While arranging the books and the stationery items into my suitcase, I found hundreds of pens, all bought from that stationery shop. I took out one of the pens and thought to myself, how an insignificant acquaintance becomes a significant part of your life. I wanted to meet him one last time and thank him for giving me company during the last two years. I think that small shop was more dear to me than all my friends.
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